Unapologetically YOU!
I woke up this morning with a song in my head: “I’m a joker, I’m a smoker, I’m a midnight toker….” you know the one, sung by Steve Miller Band. This is a song I haven’t heard for many years. That’s a message…usually. Well, it led me down the rabbit hole of “who am I?” Big question, right?
I’ve been called many things, HA! But upon deeper reflection, I looked into what I’ve been called and the terms I use to identify myself: mom, girlfriend, friend, sister, aunt, daughter, employee…those are surface level. Even deeper: intuitive, intelligent, spiritual, observant, quirky and eccentric, artist, writer, medium, teacher, hard-worker. And moreso: disciplined, careful, observant, loyal, loving, expressive, accepting, compassionate....you get it (I’ll keep those not-so-endearing ones to myself, haha).
The idea I have of myself I (promise, this is not all about me) has greatly evolved over the years and as Pluto exits Capricorn, I can’t help but make the connection. Like so many, I was greatly impacted by this 16 year transit. Pluto, the planet of transformation, in Capricorn, my sun and rising signs (amongst many other planetary placements). A quick lesson on astrology: your rising sign is how you show up in the world, how others view you and it is set in your first house in your birth chart. The first house represents your identity. So for me, it was a 16 year transformation of just that: who I am.
It’s easy to reflect back on things and see it all, right? In the moment you are experiencing something, it’s like standing too close to a Seurat painting. You know, the ones with all the dots. As you step further away, the picture becomes crystal clear. As we approach November 19th, the day that Pluto officially exits Capricorn and moves into Aquarius for the next 19 years, I can’t help but look back on who I was 16 years ago and who I am now. I didn’t know the transformation of self was happening so deeply in those years, so gracefully (and not) guided and imposed by Pluto. I can’t help but be grateful. It’s actually dumbfounding if I’m being honest. I didn’t know who I was at the start of all of this. Now…I have clarity and conviction. It’s still tough sometimes to decipher it all, but the last 16 years was a true evolution. There is still much work to be done, but now, after this transit, I feel better prepared and more willing to just see what happens in the next 19 years.
We’ve all been through transformation in some area of life in these last 16 years, just look at your birth chart to clue in and think about where that happened for you. Find where Capricorn (along with the other cardinal signs of Aries, Cancer, and Libra) lies in your chart. Without getting too deep down the astrology rabbit-hole, look up what those houses represent and reflect on the evolution that took place for you in those areas. I’d bet there’s a lightbulb moment (or two!). Give yourself credit for enduring the challenges and struggles that transformed you into who you are today. Acknowledge the change. The only guarantee in life is that it continuously changes, whether you participate or not, so why not just enjoy the ride?
I’d love to hear how you’ve transformed in the last 16 years. I just find it all so interesting. Everyone has a story waiting to be heard. So, here I am. Waiting and eagerly ready to listen.
As always, I’m sending out love and positive vibes, always cheering you on as you have surely transformed and become more you than ever. Oh! And, I have grown to like astro-charts.com. Be sure to click on “settings” and select the “whole signs” view under “houses” once you’ve pulled up your birth chart. It’s not the only thing out there, but a good place to start.
✨Bright Light Betsy✨
