Small moment, big impact
The other day, an amazing thing happened. An "aha" moment. You see, I was outside with my 5 year old who recently learned to ride his bike sans training wheels. We were outside, I was walking alongside him, he was riding his bike. He went too far and coasted down a slight hill. He turned around, frustrated with the work that lay ahead. I walked to him, offering to give him a push up the hill. I said, "It's tough to start at the bottom of a hill, let me push you, just until you get going."
Whoa. Is that profound or what?!
I couldn't help but reflect on my healing journey- my life is not anything I could've ever dreamt up- the extremes of it all. I'm in awe. I wouldn't trade the ache, pain, torment…any of it. I'd even do it again. I've met the most incredible people along the way, but I've also felt pain I never knew existed. I didn't love it at the time, but I can say now that I truly do love every moment of it.
What an experience. I'm grateful beyond expression!
But this is where the best part happens. I get to see the impact of it. Somewhere along the way, our souls met and decided we would heal ancestral trauma and redirect a family pattern. Break cycles, if you will. I agreed to be me…to experience my childhood in the exact way I did, to grow older never feeling at home or belonging, to carry wounding that would take days to explain. BUT, my kiddo gets to experience the result of the healing work I did (and continue to do). His childhood is so healing to watch and participate in. He gets to experience the way things are going forward, not the negative patterns of past generations. Patience, emotional intelligence, love, humor (SO much humor 🤪), acceptance, gratitude, excitement, compassion, accountability, understanding, communication, and honesty, to name a few.
My promise to my little guy is simple: to “push him up the hill” while providing him with the tools and encouragement he needs to be able to live a joyful and fulfilling life.
Most of the time I'm a drowning momma who's just trying to get through 9 hours of work to enjoy 3 with my loved ones. This is a moment of observation and I never want to forget that it's all been worth it.
Thank you, thank you, thank you magnificent Universe!
✨Bright Light Betsy✨
